Kusum as student: As I heard from the friends, classmates, and parents of my wife, my love “Kusum aka Vibha,” she was a bright student. Not a high scorer or topper, but a hardworking, studious, concept-based learning type student. Her parents were from a lower middle-class family from Rohtak, Haryana, where no one in her extended family was well qualified. A state where the girl-boy ratio was very poor and girl education was not encouraged. But Kusum’s amazing parents supported her education. But it was Kusum’s passion and dream to study more and more and make a successful career that led the way.
Kusum, education & cost: She was doing BSc (bachelor’s degree in Science) and then left it to pursue B.Pharm. (bachelor’s degree in Pharmacy), thinking that it may be a way to fulfil her dream. After B.Pharm., there was no money with family to support her higher studies, but she did again and qualified GATE, a tough competitive exam that gave her admission in one of India’s top institutes to get a postgraduate degree in Medical Chemistry (M.Pharm in Medical Chemistry), and that too with a 100% scholarship, covering every cost of her studies.
Kusum and me: Being lucky, I met her at Zydus Cadila, a leading pharma company in India, where she was doing her M.Pharm. dissertation project in Analytical R&D and I had joined the Drug Regulatory Affairs department as a regulatory scientist. I fell in love with her even before meeting her (that’s another story for another day to tell), and here we were getting married after a few months.
After completion of her M.Pharm. and post-marriage, her first job was as a clinical research scientist…..It is interesting that after her diagnosis with cancer, she had to participate in 7 clinical trials/ research medicine because all the approved standard treatments in India failed her. So, see how the table turns from being a clinical research scientist to becoming a patient searching for and participating in clinical trials.
She, Cancer, PhD & MBA:
Her passion for learning and study continued after our marriage, and she was committed to studying further. She secured admission to a PhD programme in pharmaceutical sciences for analytical research and development. But here comes the diagnosis for her stage 4 lung cancer (never smoker) metastatic to the brain, bones, ovaries, adnexa, et al. She was never able to be in a position to give the required energy and time for research, …..and her dream of a PhD remains a dream…
As she was not able to travel, work in labs, do research, etc., hence leaving her PhD, she took admission for a distance MBA. Despite her fight with Cancer, she passed three semesters of MBA, too, with distinction…….But God did not give her the required time to appear in her final semester exam……
Me & her wishes: On the other hand, I neither had interest in studying further nor had time with a full-time professional job that helped to earn bread for my family, where I never compromise in time and commitment, my volunteer work of cancer patient advocacy, and indeed a single dad job……..But I don’t know why I was feeling uneasy with the thought that all those academic wishes of Kusum remain unfulfilled. Though they were such wishes that ideally became null and void with her leaving this world, but I was not getting peace. Hence, one day I decided that in memory and for my love, my Vibha, I would fulfil all those wishes. I have decided to give my nights and any possible available time to it………So, I got enrolled in PhD,….and here I am after a few years, Vivek has become Dr. Vivek….
If she is there, anywhere, I hope she is getting some peace like me to see those of her wishes fulfilled through me.
Knowing Kusum, you would assume that in the list that she had planned before and during Cancer, it could not only be PhD :-). You already know about MBA, and there are many others…..So watch this space for updates on my journey living and fulfilling my Kusum wish list 🙂
For love, for hope, for humanity,
Vivek